i apologise for expressing without filtering it thru my mind. Often when i m upset i never express it becos usually i would have channelled them elsewhere. Singing and playing in a band serves as those channels. Nowadays i have neither. So these emotions have been bottled up long enuff. Perhaps dat explains sometimes, or at least 4 e past year, i cry 4 no reason. Well that hasnt happened 4 a while.
the other medium in which i channel my emotions is thru writing. Looking back at my journal, the anger n frustration has been building 4 a month or 2 so i figured i should have seen it coming.
i m not sure if it is still in there, cos i have never snapped. All these emotions i find negative i have channelled them. I have channelled them so well dat sometimes i seem emotionless. Emptiness.
But if anyone speaks the language of e eyes can see my pain. I dont seek a fren or lover who understands me, i just want dat unpretentious someone 2 talk 2.
the other medium in which i channel my emotions is thru writing. Looking back at my journal, the anger n frustration has been building 4 a month or 2 so i figured i should have seen it coming.
i m not sure if it is still in there, cos i have never snapped. All these emotions i find negative i have channelled them. I have channelled them so well dat sometimes i seem emotionless. Emptiness.
But if anyone speaks the language of e eyes can see my pain. I dont seek a fren or lover who understands me, i just want dat unpretentious someone 2 talk 2.
Finger Acrobatics Performed
On Friday, October 10, 2003 at 5:03 pm.
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